Growing a baby with your body is NO JOKE! You really understand this in the first trimester when everything pretty much blows and you get this in the second trimester when everything feels like it's (mostly) moving along nicely. But it's the third trimester (at least for me and during this pregnancy in particular) that you feel BIG and FULL and TIRED and WEIRD.
According to Ayurveda, the first trimester is governed by Kapha dosha (the earth and water elements that allow for growth and all things fertile!). The second trimester is governed by Pitta dosha (the water and fire elements that are responsible for transforming the early stages of pregnancy into a fetus). The third trimester is governed by Vata dosha (air and either elements that allow for movement and flexibility of your body and mind). For brevity's sake, I'm grossly over-simplifying here and thus am not being scientifically accurate. Keep reading to understand why....
My first pregnancy was strongly Pitta from the first day onward. The entire experience was all about keeping my pitta calm but ultimately the fire raged out of control and I was induced at 36 weeks because of preeclampsia (a very pitta condition). This pregnancy has pretty much followed all of the normal rules (nauseous for the first trimester, feeling way better for the second trimester, and now feel heavy in my third trimester).
VATA IS NOW IN FULL EFFECT despite the fact that we are currently in pitta season. My brain feels like it's on Baby Brain status 100% of the time and my body feels like it simply cannot get enough rest. I literally forgot the words "left" and "right" a few days ago! Yesterday, on the Summer Solstice, I took the kind of nap where you wake up only to not know where you are or what day it is. The sheet-mark-on-your-face kind of nap.
So what does any of this mean and why should anyone outside of my tight inner circle care? Because this is practice for postpartum. The days, weeks, and first months following the birth of a baby will be also governed by vata but mamas' bodies will likely be eager to accept the replenishment of rest and nourishing food. So when your brain feels fuzzy and your body feels heavy and it feels like there is simply not enough rest in the world to help you feel caught up, just know that this is your body's way of practicing the fine art of REST. Allow vata to ground down, knowing that you will be more grounded after your baby is in your arms. Use this as a time to ask for help where you need it and start to get used to things around the house just being different (laundry, dishes in the sink, unkempt clutter, etc). Use this as a time to sidestep the usual need to "power through", sleep when you can, and eat all of the sweet potatoes and oatmeal that you damn well please.
Yoga Teacher. Thinker of things.
Sometimes I just need to empty the contents of my brain into words.