It's technically too early to announce that I'm pregnant. I'm supposed to wait another month before I share my news but I'm far too expressive to keep it to myself. Part of the reason is because the first trimester is proving to be a miserable experience! I want to be able to share my reality in hopes that someone out there finds it helpful.
I'm only 8 weeks along but these past 3 weeks have felt like an epic rearranging of my mental, emotional, and biological functions. I need to look at this experience objectively.
I'm normally quite proud of my emotional intelligence. I've spent my adult life working to create a sense of emotional balance and am fairly confident in this department. Lately though: I'm happy! Then I'm sad.... I'm thrilled! Then I feel lost and alone.... I'm in love! Then everything he does drives me mad..... (Must he *really* need to blink like that?!) And so on and so forth with every single emotion I have. It's exhausting!
When I was pregnant with Josie I hypothesized that the first trimester was so terrible that women were being programmed to BEG for labor. The first trimester is 3 months. Labor is no more than a couple of days. Then I went into labor and that theory was smashed into a million bits. That said, here I am again and I think there might have been something to that thought.... The best I can do is document my physical reality in hopes that someone else may find it useful.
Yoga Teacher. Thinker of things.
Sometimes I just need to empty the contents of my brain into words.